i can't believe that things are back to normal that fast...

just when you thought that you're ready to embrace changes, they just drift away before your eyes. slowly. making you wish they didn't happen in the first place.

but i'm back to normal. to my normal self. to my normal life. and i just have no choice.

everything else has become too fleeting.
happiness dissolved into thin air. people leaving. people being left with nothing. not even a single word.

not even a single clue of the things that weren't spoken. the gestures weren't even helpful. they concealed things more than they revealed.


things left undone.

daydreaming. self-talking. insanity, just some inches away.
bliss. laughter. tears trapped in reluctant eyes. waiting. in vain.

but i am back to normal. and i should have all the reasons to be proud that I'm safe.

yes, reasons.

big word. way too big.

there's no easy way out. which won't be too hard because i plan to stay.
right here.
and start from scratch.

just like the old days. yes, the old days have welcomed me back.
and I'll do just fine.

i know i will. again, there's just no other way

i'm back to myself again. :D